Episode 18
Reminiscence under the gate
I sat under the Torii gate of the shrine, immersed in my thoughts, about my past and what I am now.
[Izuru] “I wonder why, but I find Lady Yukari like a mother figure who I once lost in my entire life, it makes me happy and sad at the same time, since I became a shikigami...” “I will not deny that shikigami are, in short, entities summoned and controlled by their masters to do anything.” “But I was, always, an exceptional case, as she told me.” “Is she... really worried about me? I wouldn't believe it, coming from a youkai like her.” “Maybe yes, maybe no, and that will be something I will never know.” “In some ways, I am in love with my master, if only I could have given her a hug that day, because like it or not, she played a vital role in my well-being.” “Whenever I say I'm grateful, I always mean it, sometimes filled with tears because of the sheer emotion it contains.” “As for my promise, I still keep it to this day; It's like my existence depends on it, but that's only something Lady Yukari knows, no one else, not even myself.” “As soon as I get home, I'll give her a hug, and whisper a 'thank you'...”
I said goodbye to Reimu and Marisa, and returned home. The clock says it's almost half past eight, so I was right on time, if not a little early.
[Izuru] “I'm... back home”
[Ran] “Oh, hello, Izuru.” “Are you looking for Lady Yukari?”
[Izuru] “Yes, I am...”
As soon as I said that, she appeared, and just like that, I did exactly what I wanted to do all this time.
[Yukari] “Why...? I didn't expect this from you”
[Izuru] “Thank you... I wish I could have done this on that fateful day, but now, I... I... I don't regret it”
I started crying being in that position. I don't expect it to be reciprocal, but I'll appreciate it if it is.
[Izuru] “I just want to be loved, that's all I want, no matter what else. Maybe I'm very emotional about it, but it is what it is.”
[Yukari] “You have left me speechless” “Really, you are exceptional, and I like that” “Who knows, maybe you can be as valuable as Ran”
[Izuru] “That....is more than enough for me, my lady...”
After such a moment, Ran made dinner and we helped ourselves to it, then we went to sleep in our rooms, and that's pretty much about it.
To be continued